Shhhhh....

Secrets are mysteriously weird and have always been a reason to be socially accepted. More on that later.

Think in school, there was always this secret which every group had, they had some code word for it, and if u didn't know it, u weren't cool. Rather you weren't accepted.

But if you think of it , what is a secret? If u plan to tell it to somebody after all, does it cease to remain one?
Of course, consider most secrets are scandalous worthy of gossip, they don't remain what they are, but are a part of the khusur phusur people do but still the fact remains unknown as public. Secrets have a weird definition. If it is a secret about you, you makes sure the other person swears to secrecy when you yourself aren't while telling the person. It depends on who it is that you are telling.

If it is about your feelings or some experience that you had and you are utterly confused or worried or whatever as to what to do about it, you want someone to help you out, that is probably the start of letting out a secret.

If you have ever realized, a secret becomes one once someone who does not know the details comes to know of its existence, else it doesn't exist at all.

And so secrets make you mysterious. Make people curious. Makes them want to wonder what that damn secret is. Perfect recipe for the attention seekers. So people in order to garner attention to themselves will make sure they drop hints that they know something the other doesn't. And they'll make sure they drop hints to the person to whom it matters the most. And well, curiosity kills the cat. People cannot accept that they do not know something the others know; and when it's about them, why even I would wonder what is it. They will ask, persuade, beg at times, the secret bearer may choose not to tell till they have got the most attention, or probably they may not say it at all. At this point, the curious cat is real fed up and doesn't bother or goes back to wasting hours wondering what could it be.

Now, let's come to social acceptance. Let us say that the supposed secret is not gossip worthy because a friend told you about it cuz he/she trusted you. It makes you feel accepted. When people believe you, when they want you to know how they feel about something or someone which is something they think only you could understand besides them, it makes you feel proud of yourself. Consider the secret is sad, yet it is a sign of social acceptance. That person feels they can come to you when they need support. Although, some people when entrusted with a secret feel the absolute need of talking about it with their "best friend". It is harmless if it stops with that. But then, we know the chain, don't we? :P

For the past few years, I have been someone who has been told loads of secrets by different people about different things in different circumstances. I have been trusted to an extent,  where I am scared that I might make a mistake. But nope, mere pet mein sab baat pachti hain. One person will not even know that I spoke to the other if I do not want them to. It may seem like bragging but more than that , it makes me feel I belong. Always having been a person in school who wasn't privy to secrets in class thereby not belonging, when people trust me with something, I always try to make them feel better if it is something bad and what they said definitely doesn't go out cuz the trust is much more worthy than the feeling of having discussed it with someone else. Probably I'm making a big fuss out of nothing but I am definitely proud of the fact that I can keep a secret :D.

I guess secrets will always exist defying their definition and of course defying their very existence as more and more people become a part of one.
(Wow, I wrote this long a post even after a month of absence. Guess, the bad semester hasn't squeezed this out of me :) )