Forgotten

I have forgotten those times,

When my heart did not know the immenseness,

Of what was going on,

It just kept on feeling,

Like that feeling always belonged.

I have forgotten those times,

My heart was being wrung dry,

It couldn't possibly bear, not any more,

But it kept on going,

Like nothing had ever gone wrong.

I have forgotten those times,

My heart wanted to be numb,

Escape from all those emotions,

That it just didn't want to know, not yet,

A little more time, before it took the plunge.

I have forgotten those times,

When you began to slip away from me,

I kept believing I was holding on to you,

When in fact, all that was left, was a mere shadow.

I have forgotten how it used to feel,

When I heard those songs, those that spoke of waiting for love,

The memories come to me,

And it is all that is left of those feelings.

Yet I know there's a part of me,

The one that I keep hidden, the one no one knows exists,

That holds on to the day when I can remember again, feel again,

And weep those tears in emotions galore.

I shall keep close to me,

The existence of such a possibility,

Until then it shall remain forgotten,

While it remains in the back of my memory.